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| FUCK.im freaking out so bad. im 115 but i feel and look like 2380. i try to work out and eat really healthy but nothing is fucking working. i LOOK WORSE WHEN I TRY TO BETTER MYSELF. im also freaking out about not getting my period tommorw bc im worried about pregnancy.. but im one of those ppl that freak out about anything w/ sex. i feel like my stomach is HUGE and just FUCK. I HATE MYSELF.
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| i need some serious motivationso im 115... which is not fat but definetly not satisfying for me. i want to be as skinny as the victoria secret models! i want the attention that i deserve. lately i have not been able to resist food & i can't say no to food. and since now cheerleading is over i need to start going back to the gym.. can anyone please give me helpful advice?? PLEASE, GIVE ME ANY ADVICE! | | |
| happy new year ! 
so i haven't been writing lately because i've been so busy with things and finishing up school stuff, but i still have been getting on and reading other people's posts. i see a lot of people writing and writing and i feel like they are doing nothing for themselves bc they don't have enough WILL POWER. if your 130 something pounds stop saying that your going to look like megan fox and JUST DO IT! if you care that much then you should have the will power to eat healthier foods, not eat late & binge, & work out instead of reaching for the cookie jar after you post a weblog. sorry that's just my thought of the moment.
i wish everyone the best of luck this year and i hope all your weight wishes come true. i realllyyyy want to be 90 to 95 by the end of 2009 & i pray that i have enough will power to make it happen. over the holidays its been so hard to keep up with what i've been eating so i don't think i've gained any, but i don't think i've lost either. i think i'm around 113. it sucks that i don't drive because i'd be at the gym all the time.
my throat feels horrible the past few nights! i think i have tonsillitis =( but i'm scared of any surgeries unless its like a nose job because anesthesia is so freakkyyyyy!! but besides that, my boyfriend and i just had our 3 month and he is absolutely the perfect boy for me =] i hope everyone finds such a caring & loving & giving guy like mine this year.. only if you deserve it though lol!
BEST OF LUCK EVERYONE!
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| 112.5so i weighed in this morning at 112.. which made me realllyyy happy. i'm tired of fucking up so i really want be careful on what i eat today. i have a basketball game to cheer at today so hopefully i'll be burning a lot of calories. finals are coming up with the following week & i AM SO STRESSED out idk what to do!! i'm going to take ADD medicine to help me focus.. & eat less =[
GOOD LUCK TODAY EVERYONE!
iNTAKE:
fiber-one cerial w/ skim milk- 160ish?
orange vitamin drink- 20
fiber vitamins
I'LL POST BACK LATER!! <3
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| 114.5 ... NOT GOOD ENOUGH!my weight is starting to drive me crazy! i watch what i eat.. i'm usually very good and i'm still not dropping like i had hoped! i worked out at the gym today & did realllyy good.. then i went in the sauna and steam room. i've been cheering but it hasn't really been helping my weight. i have some muscles though & that could be why i'm not dropping as much. i'm still taking the firm and tone vitamins and i think its slowly working & i've been taking fiber vitamins which i like a lot too. i also went tanning today which made me very happy =) soo tommrow is thanksgiving & i've been thinking soooo hard if i want to purge!!! but im so scared to try it! what do you guys think? i need your help! also, do you think laxatives actually work? anyways, goodbye for now.. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
--damage
*power bar- 300
*vit/fiber-?
*honey chicken w/ a little rice &
green beans-?
*tangerine-?
*green beans w/ potatoes & a little meat-?
--rescue
*atleast 30 minutes on the treadmill
*running machine for 10 minutes (100 calories)
*abs, legs, back, hamstrings
i'm going to go workout again... NIGHT L<3VES!
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